Oh, hey.

It’s been a while.

I somehow remembered today that I had this account, so I activated it and browsed through my old stuff and cringed my way through some of them. I had to fight the urge to download all my old posts and delete most of them, but it’s a testament of my growth and I’m trying my best not to be ashamed of them. :)

A couple of things have changed since I’ve been away. Here’s a list.

• I find driving around aimlessly very calming, especially nowadays that I’ve been so stressed out more than usual. My gas tank is crying, but I attain peace of mind so I do it because I can’t afford to see a therapist right now. And by aimlessly I meant driving to Oakbrook Center and spending a shit ton of money at Sephora, Apple, Barnes & Noble, or Nordstrom.. whichever store I feel like splurging when I’m there. I really need to save money or else I’ll be broke when I’m on vacation, and that’s no fun at all.
• I have succumbed to the hype and got myself Airpods. I’m mildly disappointed at myself since they’re expensive af and I already have my BeatsX (which still holds the #1 spot in my heart), but when I do my rounds at work they’re visible and I wanna be lowkey. Most of the younger techs also have it, so now there’s three of us lol.
• I read an excerpt of Michelle Obama’s book ‘Becoming’ on iBooks earlier today and paragraph one of the preface sold me. I had to get it. This is my current read.
• I made it through term A of my spring semester as a junior. I barely made it through with straight A’s, because God forbid I get anything less than that and my parents (particularly my mother) would freak out. The next 8 weeks are going to be brutal with classes, work, PPE, PPE presentations in May, AHIMA open house, and a comprehensive exam of all the classes we’ve had since August of last year. But if I’m being honest, I’d rather have a hundred things going on at once than nothing at all. Stress does crazy shit to me but it’s so much better than being stagnant. I just want to have enough time to watch my TV shows or read a book for leisure. This just means I need better time management skills a.k.a. I need to spend my free time wisely instead of lying in bed doing nothing!
• I am going back to the motherland for my birthday and I’m extremely excited to see my friends that I haven’t seen in six years. I’m also going to be a godmother to one of my friend’s baby girl and I’m also excited to spoil her like she’s my own child.
• I’ve been too emotionally invested in people lately and I break my own heart because of it. Why do I do this to myself? I know myself well enough to know that I cannot balance school and love, so why do I still push it? I never learn.
• Skincare is something I’ve been into lately and I’m still trying to figure things out in that department. Obviously I go straight to Sephora for this, and my wallet cries every time because skincare products are not cheap! I like to think of them as investment pieces since with a clear canvas (face), paint (makeup) goes on much more smoother. Lol idk what’s up with that analogy but y’all get it.
• Makeup. Need I say more? I love putting random shit on my face to make me feel/look pretty especially if they smell good! If you wanna give me something for my birthday or if you just wanna give me a gift, a Sephora gift card would be nice. :)
• I recently bought a bookcase online from IKEA, and I’m so excited for it to get delivered. The assembling process might not be fun and I have no idea if I can find space for it in my room, but I’ll make it fit no matter what.
• I made a playlist for this person I like, but it’s not like she’ll ever see it. I never do this, so this is how I know I’m in too deep a.k.a. I’m fucked.

Ten bullet points is where I’m calling it quits.
I hope 2019 is filled with love and joy for you guys. ❤